Friday, July 31, 2009

UNSTOPPABLE lyrics

I can not get this song out of my head and heart.


So, so you made a lot of mistakes
Walked down the road a little sideways
Cracked a brick when you hit the wall
Yeah, you've had a pocket full of regrets
Pull you down faster than a sunset
Hey, it happens to us all

When the cold hard rain just won't quit
And you can't see your way out of it

CHORUS
You find your faith has been lost and shaken
You take back what's been taken
Get on your knees and dig down deep
You can do what you think is impossible
Keep on believing, don't give in
It'll come and make you whole again
It always will, it always does
Love is unstoppable

Love, it can weather any storm
Bring you back to being born again
oh, it's a helping hand when you need it most
A lighthouse shining on the coast
That never goes dim

When your heart is full of doubt
And you think that there's no way out

CHORUS
You find your faith has been lost and shaken
You take back what's been taken
Get on your knees and dig down deep
You can do what you think is impossible
Keep on believing, don't give in
It'll come and make you whole again
It always will, it always does
Love is unstoppable

Like a river keeps on rolling
Like the north wind blowing
Don't it feel good knowing
Yeah

CHORUS
You find your faith has been lost and shaken
You take back what's been taken
Get on your knees and dig down deep
You can do what you think is impossible
Keep on believing, don't give in
It'll come and make you whole again
It always will, it always does
Love is unstoppable

Love is unstobbale
So you made a lot of mistakes
Walked down the road a little sideways
Love, love is unstoppable

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Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Religulous Response

As you may know I don’t belong to a specific church anymore. Yes, I agree religion can tend to be ridiculous. People can get caught up with other people. Religion is man made. I like to say that I’m not trying to entice people to religion but to a relationship. It’s always been a spiritual thing. Maybe I have tried too hard too often. What it comes down to in the end is what is there between you and the one that created you? Is there a relationship? Are you giving thanks to the One who gave you life?

My biggest concern about this film is that he is seeking evidence. Faith is the evidence of things unseen. You can’t see the wind but you can see the effects of the wind. Do you not believe that wind exists because you can’t see it? Do you believe thunder doesn’t exist because you can only hear it and not see it? Faith is all about belief. You don’t need evidence for faith. I can understand why Bill is trying to search for answers. People do crazy things in the name of God. But we as humans are fallen and make mistakes and do stupid things. So no one can give you the right answer. You could seek and seek and seek until you turn blue and die and never get the evidence that you need. It’s just something you feel inside of you and I can’t nor can anyone else give you God. We can share how God is changing our life. We can share what our relationship with God is like. We can’t force you to like someone you don’t like or want to like. If you don’t want to get to know someone you don’t get to know them. It’s all about the relationship, it’s not a religion!

I am Question girl. I will never have all the answers. I never will. I seek all the time. It’s seriously like the blind leading the blind. Some lead to do harm and some lead with good intent and yet it harms. Some lead and it brings people to do, have, seek good things in life without harm. No MAN has the answer. The answers come from God. So Christians seek Jesus because we believe he was God. We also seek truth from the Bible because we believe that it was written by God through the hands of men. We are just God’s instruments and if we are fully connected and fully pure at heart seeking God in what we do, there is only beauty, peace, joy, love, kindness, gentleness, etc.

I don’t have the answers as to why bad things happen. I don’t know the right answer. I believe, however, that we are imperfect and that God loves us and gives us free will. He lets us do what we want and often that leads to disaster. Yet, we don’t see through God’s eyes and we never will. So we can’t see the whole picture of how all good and bad events/things/people fit into the whole wonderful beautiful plan. So yes, it’s very frustrating at times. There is anger towards God. There is impatience, sadness, weariness, tons of questions, etc. But there is soooooo much joy too!

God doesn’t hate anyone! God isn’t man. We are, and therefore, may never understand Him/Her fully. If we could understand God it would be like we could fit God in a box and God is sooooooo much bigger than us. God can do impossible things. Our job isn’t to sit there and figure out why God does what he does because we may never know. WE can’t see the whole picture. We should just be joyful people who love God and other people. Is that too much to ask of God after he created EVERYTHING? And why would you want to argue whether or not God is there and loves you? It just is that way. Accept it and be amazed by that.

Doubt. One of my favorite Christian authors, Phillip Yancy, is a skeptic. He writes about doubt. He says the opposite of faith is not doubt, its fear. Totally believe that one. So I have faith and doubt. It’s a constant struggle every moment of life balancing this. Life is not about the destination it’s about living life to the fullest and being positive and grateful for all that you have been given. We aren’t the star in this story called life. God is. We need to stop being so selfish and ungrateful. We should give credit where credit is due when we see a beautiful sunset, smell a delilicous type of natural food, feel a cool breeze when it’s unbearably hot or a drenching rain when the earth is thirsty.

Miracles. Do you believe in miracles? Yes, sometimes you just have to believe crazy things. Jonah lived inside a “big fish” or a whale whatever you want to say the being was. All these stories just show us how powerful God is and how God can let anything happen. We shouldn’t limit the possibilities of God.

10 commandments. God’s laws. If you remember in the Kite Runner, I forget what character it was but I think it was the one kids dad, one character explained it best. That everything comes back to stealing. If you murder, you steal life. If you commit adultery, you steal someone’s spouse. If you molest someone, you steal their innocence. We should not kill. It doesn’t take much to convince anyone that this is wrong. If we kill ourselves, we are taking our own life. If we murder in any form (abortion, capital punishment, IVF) we are taking away life. We shouldn’t play God. God decides when it is time for someone to go. We need to cherish life because it is a gift from God.

Evolution. Why is it so strange to believe that we started out from one man and one woman? Isn’t that how human beings are conceived these days? Between a sperm and an egg? So couldn’t one man and one woman start all creation off. Yeah, it’s kinda gross to think that their kids reproduced with each other, but here we are. Do we really have to debate that? Can’t we just enjoy our bodies and all the creation that God gave us? Can’t we just have simple childlike faith that God did what He said he did? He wanted life so he created it.

Sabbath. Why does it seem weird that we should have a day of rest??? Short and sweet. God worked really hard for 6 days forming this whole place we live in and such. Afterwards, he rested. He wants us to do the same. Work really hard and take a whole day and rest.

Trinity. LOVE the water analogy! God is in three forms. God is ice, Jesus is water and the Holy Spirit is vapor/steam! Awesome!

Sin. Adam and Eve were created in a perfect world. They disobeyed God and through that act sin entered the world. Everyone born was then a sinner. I am a sinner. But thankfully, God fixed that problem with Jesus.

Finally, God can do ANYTHING! And all He asks, through Jesus, is to LOVE Him with all our hearts and to LOVE others as we show love to ourselves. So simple, yet so hard to do. But that’s it! All the while we are to live on this evil infested earth around other sinners like ourselves struggling to make it through. We could focus on all the negatives but there is soooo much positive out there.

We are loved by God, the Creator of EVERYTHING! God is amazing!

Friday, July 24, 2009

Love (God) is unstoppable!

“Get on your knees and dig down deep
You can do what you think is impossible

Love is unstoppable.” –Rascal Flatts

I often interchange the word LOVE with God. Most of the time, it fits quite well. With LOVE all things are possible and with GOD all things are possible. Lately, I have felt like I’ve been stuck at love in my fruit of the Spirit journey. How can I move on to joy and peace if I’m stuck at love? Then, I thought…hmmm… love is a BIG thing…God is love and God is HUGE!!! Is it so bad to be stuck on God? I think I’ll always be stuck there, because not only is love so hard to understand, so is God. He is a mystery always to be curious and hungry for. So why do I feel stuck?

I’ve really been feeling stuck because I have not gotten very far in my journey of finding and loving myself this year. But how can you really find yourself and really love yourself without seeing yourself through God’s eyes? How can you see through God’s eyes if you aren’t really digging deep and getting on your knees enough to really be intimate with God? Intimacy brings deep understanding and connections. It’s not easy and leaves you very vulnerable. I guess I haven’t felt like I want to do the work and then put myself out there to get hurt. That’s messed up though! God isn't going to harm me. Being vulnerable will hurt, sure! It won’t kill me, only make me stronger. No one ever said life was going to be easy but we are told we aren’t alone. I don’t even think God intends for intimacy to be hard either. I think we as humans make it a TON more hard than it should be.

So that leaves me searching for ways to create the mood for intimacy with God. A great friend of mine recommended the book Crazy Love by Francis Chan. I’ve started reading that and so far I’m thinking it’s the PERFECT book for where I’m at right now. So we shall see!

Here is one more thing I want to share. Something that may not seem amazing to others but to me I felt it was very significant. Hopefully the links will work. If they do, my hope is that you really feel the relation between the two characters as if it were an interaction between you and God. Humor me here.

Today, I was watching Little Mermaid (with Megs) and I couldn’t help but relate it to God and my own spirituality. See, I’ve been a little like Ariel, rebellious against God, my father, wanting to do what I desire regardless of what He thinks. Not caring what the outcome will be and how much my desire and love for other things above God really, really hurts God. God is a jealous God and doesn’t want me to have things in my life that separate me from his full attention because when I am unfocused and unconnected that is when I get myself into trouble. Also, he wants my heart. He wants to destroy these desired things even if it does bring me temporary pain. He feels saddened by causing me pain but as a loving father He has to do what is best. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J2invqrwelg

However, I never seem to learn my lesson. I keep thinking my ways are better and what I want is best for me. Yet even through it all, through all the sadness, all the hurt and all the trouble I get myself into, God is still there to save me from it. Most importantly He was willing to sacrifice Himself through His Son to pay for the consequences of the trouble I get myself into.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gy7D9YeR2F0&NR=1

So why do I beat myself up for what I do? Yes, I know I have to take some sort of responsibility for myself but beyond that I have a LOVING God that has already forgiven me. Did I stress LOVING enough? After all the rebellion and all the forgiveness, God still does want to bless me. He wants to give me the desires of my heart.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zox2BkWmwnk

I need to stop getting in the way of an unstoppable, crazy love. I need to seek it and go with the flow of that love. I need to stop resisting. I need to seek God through all my pain, sorrow, sadness, happiness, joy and excitement. Although I have deep desires for things in my life, I don’t know what is best for me. God knows the desires of my heart and I’m sure wants to bless me with things that will bring much joy. I’m sure pure joy brings him much satisfaction, just like we all get satisfaction when we really bless someone with a gift/words that they really wanted to have/hear. So God doesn’t need my help to “shop” for those desires. They will be great surprises and gifts if I let Him pick them out and give them to me in the PERFECT and most appropriate timing. He knows what color goes best on me. He knows what texture feels the most enjoyable. He knows what scent or what flavor appeals to me the most. He knows all these things better than I even do!!! I could really have the best blessings ever if I just let God shower me with His love. His love is unstoppable!

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Woman in the Mirror


“Better one good thing that is, rather than two good things that were, or three good things that might never come to pass.” –Irish proverb

It’s really hard to stay in the NOW! It’s not impossible though. What is impossible is trying to change other people. So why do we struggle with control? Why don’t we just learn to BE? If we don’t like what is, no need to look outside ourselves for the answer to the problem. We need to make the choice to be happy or not. I believe we find true joy and happiness when we look at what is and enjoy it rather than complain about it. If we start to feel negativity towards something, we have a choice to change. We can’t change others or the situation, but we can change ourselves. We can change our behaviors, reactions and emotions.

I have been struggling lately with feelings of franticness and control. When I feel out of control like this it really troubles me. I start to try to put the blame on other people or situations, when in fact, I am the one who needs to get a grip. I can’t blame anyone else for putting food in my mouth, spending money in my checking account, leaving my apartment a mess, feelings of guilt, and physical exhaustion. I need to look at myself and sit down and have a chat. First of all, one person always has to be involved in this. I have learned the hard way about leaving God out of my life. It’s not a pretty sight. So, number one on the agenda is to be still and feel God and ask him to be present during this conversation. Then, I have to address issues that need to be taken care of.

I must say that I am really blessed at the present moment with being able to financially take care of myself so that I can live on my own, in solitude. For one reason alone, it makes putting the blame on anyone else nearly impossible. I can’t blame anyone else for using my debit card. I can’t blame someone else for making something crappy for dinner. I can’t blame anyone for making my apartment a mess (well, maybe Wallie). So why do I easily place blame on others for my emotional baggage? I need to own up to this. I need to look in the mirror and see who God made and say “You are better than that! Where is the Spirit of self-control in you? You deserve joy and peace. Relax and breathe. Now, be yourself.”

Since we are mourning the loss of good ‘ole MJ…it’s only natural to reflect on his wonderful music. For good reasons I’ve really been drawn to Man in the Mirror. We have to look to ourselves to make changes and ask God to be with us and give us strength to be His hands. I have often found it hard to look in the mirror at myself. I’m not quite at the place that I’m completely accepting of myself. I’ll get there! Right now I have to be joyful in knowing that better is joy in the now, than the passion and enjoyment of the past, or the riches, health and love that might never come. So starting today… I will remember…“If you wanna make the world a better place, take a look at YOURSELF and then make a change” – Michael Jackson