Monday, February 10, 2014

__________ TOO HEAVY!

IT'S TOO HEAVY
So I saw this video this week and totally related to it. How you ask? I don't have a kid so it's not like I was imagining how good/bad my kid might be. I wasn't comparing this to anyone else I know. It didn't necessarily remind me of myself when I was a child, although I know I put my mom through similar situations when I was EXTREMELY tired, as I assume this kid is. To me this video has nothing to do with childhood tantrums at all. I've been processing this silly little video because I believe it was a God-send, like a piece of the ladder to get me out of the little rut I fall into often times.
Although I don't feel the dad has perfect parenting skills, I mean who does, I think he did a great job with his daughter and has so much patience and love for her. I think a lot of people might look at this video and think this girl is acting completely ridiculous, just pick up the damn bowl. I watched it and felt bad for her because of the week I was having and to me the bowl, the IT of the IT'S TOO HEAVY, was a number of different emotions. As I watched it again, I realized how supportive the dad was. He wasn't mean or impatient. He was empathetic, validating her struggle with the heaviness of the situation. He encouraged her and gave her the right pushes when he needed to.  Below I rewrote the script, yellow highlight is the video, the rest was rewritten by what sort of transpired subconsciously this week after watching the video:

DAD: What's the problem?
KID: [MOAN: as she tries to lift the bowl] I can't do it.[as she runs away: CRYING]
D: You can't lift that up?
K: Nooooooo! 
GOD: What's making you feel so down these days?
ME: [Scratching head, breathing fast/heavy]I can't deal with all this.[curls up on couch, CRYING]
G:: You can't face your feelings?
M: NOooooo!
D: Well, come back and try again... you're almost to the sink.
K: [disappears, reappears with coping mechanism] I can't do it.[MOAN: as she tries to lift the bowl]
D: Oooo 
K: I can't do it.[puts thumb in mouth]
G: Well, take a breath and try again... it's almost Spring.
M: [disappears to fridge, reappears with a couple gobs of cookie dough] I can't do it.[Scratching head, breathing fast/heavy]
G: Hmmm...
M: [Scratching head, breathing fast/heavy]I can't do this anymore.[eats more cookie dough]
D: That looks like it's very heavy. I think you can do it though Kiersten. I think you can lift it up to the sink and you can help clear the table.
K: [MOAN: as she tries to lift the bowl] I'm not big enough.
D: I think you can do it. Your big Hammy couldn't do it but you could do it.
G: Looks like you have a lot of heavy feelings related to the things you have to take care of these days. But I think you can handle them, Mel. I think you can get through the feelings safely and learn how to overcome these situations.
M: [CRYING, eating ice cream with cookie dough, breathing heavy/fast] I'm not strong enough. I can't hold it together long enough to get through it.
G: I think you can do it. Your _______ couldn't do it right now but you can do it. I've seen you do it before.
K: [MOAN: as she tries to lift the bowl]
D: Uuwwp  Oooo
K: [puts thumb in mouth]
D: You wanna try again? Maybe take your thumb out of your mouth and move our lovey and you can do it all...
K: [MOAN: as she tries to lift the bowl]
M: [curled up, CRYING] [DEEP BREATH...]
G: See...
M: [deep breath turns back into rapid breathing]
G: Okay, wanna try the deep breathing again? Maybe finish that bite of cookie dough? Move the computer off your lab and take a break from Kitchen Scramble and you can embrace these feelings all...
M: [eats more ice cream with cookie dough] [CRYING, because can't stop eating, breathing faster/heavier]
D: Okay, let's go. Put it in the sink.
K: [MOAN: as she tries to lift the bowl] I can't do it. [MOANS: lifts bowl up to counter: immediately falls to floor; CRYING]
G: Okay, Mel. Let's go. Face the feelings.
M: [curled up, CRYING] I can't!  [curled up, CRYING, reaches for the art therapy book and colored pencils] 
D: OOh! You did it!
K: (UNCLEAR WORDS) IT'S TOO HEAVY! [CRYING]
D: It was so heavy?
K: [CRYING, runs back to the counter with spoon, more CRYING]
G: GREAT! Ooooh Mel look you're doing it!
M: IT'S TOO DAMN $%#@ing HEAVY!!!!
G: It was hard reaching for that book wasn't it? Let it out now. You are safe.
M: [CRYING, CRYING, & more CRYING]

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